The May 13-14

The poster of 4 chinese traditional ladies:

One holding harp, One is playing the Go, one is writing, one is painting.

That’s the posters in the bed room of my sister and I. Carries wish of my grandpa towards us, I guess. To grow up with The Arts.

Now，I think the Art become the path I reach understanding of the truth of human beings.  Or another word, maybe from beginning, I already lived in the truth, as my self : S-elf is built so early that somehow I did not get brain washed. 

Now, indeed, whole my life could make a map out by people I had interacted with , by their names, all names are somehow related..

Another words, my life become a life experience for answering WHY,  I still remember my first question when I was still in my Aunt arms is that Why Adult is like that.

Then the whole life of me was to try to find myself in this world..

It was very interesting that when I first met Mike,,for kite racer: I saw my aunt’s eyes and eyebrows on his face. He is the writer. And interesting enough his story has two figures named as Prescott and Jean. And the two name already was in my life.. 

Jean , as myself, Prescott had ID evil-Jesus, I played chess with.  

Then, I was fighting with myself about my own emotion towards the Painter, before I knew of his Last name .

My doubts towards Painter was confirmed by the Writer’s saying: it was typical excuse White boy use aunt’s death to fly girl a kite..( though later I knew it was real, it seemed distrust scared me )

I remember then Mike kept mentioning the Idea of TV show who is most chinese . I think I m for sure.

Did you see those two chinese figure holding the tools around the free Masons G symbol??

I think problem of this world is that Western people are brought up by movie. They forgot that we are indeed all souls playing with our fleshes as our costume.. life indeed shall be divine play..  our first priority of life is not live to find balance with the world but to find balance between ourselves and our natural being. 

Begin forwarded message:

From: Molly Li <alinkagroup@gmail.com>
Date: May 13, 2019 at 10:25:35 PM EDT
To: Stickling Jens

Subject: Respond to Your question about Marco and picture of Alexander

Marco is still Marco. Time stays without tickling away in his mind. Just like me, spinning in the memories..  

Kim is the one taking care of Marco most time and includes me to create the space for me to hide in my pure imagination world.( spiritual realm)

The picture of your baby surely made me envy!!! 
Those type of emotion always brought me doubts about my choice of path..you really plays as your name called  means in the book of my life.Stickling means  “ scruple” .

Luckily, I am more convinced that it was not my imagination or I will say My pure intention brought me messages repeating reflecting the order of the truth of spirit.

Today I saw a picture  showing the reality of this world. A chinese chess player and international chess player.

And 5 years old me won 33 years old man in Chinese chess, Then from 9, I was on international chess journey, because of that I did not make the art club..another reason,  as my painting of orchid was not trusted to be my own work. I guess that’s why I had special feeling towards art.  T’he-Art is the farm spiritual name... and we are going to host artist group here in long May weekend. 

Anyway, I m still looking for way to express what was revealed to me by the spirit towards scientific world.. maybe a way not focusing on “the spirit of Jesus “ is easier to be accepted?? —- I m thinking louder.. 

Luckily, I also could find peace just building heaven on the Earth on the land to express the way it was supposed to be. Though it was slowly , but things are happening.

Now, 3:50am, Above message was mixed with two days thought 

The envy emotion and the doubts came together with my sickness feeling. ( my physical body reflected to my emotion obviously)
And waked up, thinking of I used my grandma’s tear, get me off from the kongfu  training almost feel like torture.. it also happened when I was 5, after that the saying about me being genius kid also runner was hovering above me.

It seems whole my life fighting for not to be a runner.. in deed, I still had been  running away from my mother’s eyes. 

But everything has a reason , it seems to me that  if we keep questioning WHY, “God “ will show up.. I think the major difference of Buddhism and One God belief is that onE God  belief do not let go off human nature as human was..by accepting our off target intendancy, then we don’t have to fight with it.  It is more acceptable to humans imperfection. Therefore it brings peace ... 

Such as the story of Bible put woman In the position to cause “sin” from the beginning. Then indeed, it bring woman more against their nature. Now, more woman play  like man 

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My “negative “ -envy emotion, reminding me of all pains I had to live through this life caused by the world which Adult made . Also my un fulfilled dreams as a woman who once dreamed for having lots of kids by myself.

To me, only comfort I had is that I did make each move by my own choice to encounter with the spirit.. and I also know that my true home is beyond the Earth.. 

Even the mark I had on the heart meridian had story to tell :

Looks like a worm bite.. isn’t it?

I was just told by the pastor Paul that Catholic think all human just like worm.

I was bitten along in my life.along the heart meridian line

5-6 years old by English name as Gordon, Chinese Initial HY, I called his little name initial as JJ. He is my little neighbor grow up together was born in snake years.  The event that I let him bite till he chose to let me go, was indeed made me good kind name in neighborhood  As I could easily attack down the little 1-2 years old kid. I still remember it happened on a big pile of gravel. He climbed up and I was to take him down for his grandma. 

Then When I was 33 years old, my heart was bitten by somebody whose Middle name same  , same was born in year of  snake but 12 years elder than my little neighbor and even birthday were same as JJ.. ( how coincident life could be eh?)


And now, it was the mark in the middle.. it was bitten by the spirit also be called as the main stream collective consciousness.

I had been in deep question about myself whether I should speak up the spirit of Jesus talking to me loud or it was just me, myself talking to me? 

Or indeed, maybe I had been playing the chess with Evil Jesus in the spirit realm for the Jesus I believe in. 


I had been unsettled the whole night. It was the emotion being turned on by reviewing the path?

Kid naps happened in between.( I teased it as kidnap of spirit) 

Wake up into the news of fire of Iran which let me seeing the war again in the collective news.. 

Nuclear in Chinese, it is written as 核
And what my worried about the Mark left by medical test is written as “结核＂

In deed, it could mean connecting the core of heart. Also mean end up the nuclear .. 

The truth of my existence is that the “Event” talk to me like E-Vent..

And E-motion feel like energy/ esprit motion..

Maybe it is only happening to me, could not be considered as scientific data. But indeed, I was original from the Statistic study , I had been questioning Small probability event was considered  untruth . The saying itself is unreal. 

It was matter of trust of our own experience or the authority told us?? 

I m still waiting for the result of the X-ray. 
The reaction of my physical system whether it follows to what had been in my mind about worry of the nuclear war? 

Anyway,I  will be revealed by the X-Ray..

Speaking to Ray; I had been saying Ray in spirit.. It was very interesting, while I met Jo who introduce us Wolf Wolfensberger theory, I also met another mother whose boy was deceased. She  is so sad.

You guys all know the lake of wolfe as E flow in mirror? Right?

I know at the end, only light would be showing the truth..

As the memory of 1999, the same worry raised by the same theme issue.  It made my life another big circle in TheMe..

Again Circled..

Recently, I also found the Northern Star in Chinese which we use to refer the north direction. My great grandma told, each person on the Earth are related to the each star on the sky.
I had been identifying myself as the weaver to make painting on the time..  and Vega was the star we called as lady weaver. Which was in the constellation of Lyra..( symbol of harp is also very strong key in my story related to the two Gordon.. with spinning letters, I hope it means God r on ) 

Legend 

I guess Both of us did not realize the consciousness flow turned out to be a flood because you asked about Marco and shared with me the picture of little one.. LoL

I think  being understand is  need for any soul.. that’s why I keep exercise my way to communicate with this world..

Hugs
Molly 



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